Escape.
That’s all I could think about.
Escape
The voice kept saying.
And for once,
I felt weak enough to listen.
You’ll be doing them a favor anyway
It always feels
like a burden
being true to yourself.
Those around selfish
for pieces
of you
to
remind them
of
a
connection to something.
Lineage.
Escape
You think about you best friend
what will it do to your her?
Escape
No. It will ruin her.
Escape
Escape
Escape
this misery of a life.
But
It ain’t so bad.
It does get lonely sometime
but it ain’t so bad.
Escape
Fuck.
I’ve thought about it, more times than I could count,
but still can’t figure out why I actually did it.
Most of what happened seems blurred like some part of my brain
doesn’t want me to remember.
What I do remember
is waking up in a hospital bed.
The guys laugh and make jokes about it because I found myself in a women’s hospital.
Thus the story can be told of how one of the nurses had a crush on me.
Cause that’s how we – men – deal with things.
So I am dealing with things.
Like a man.
As laughter
turns into drinking
and the next day
you wake up
and start dealing with things
again.
The cycle continues
till one day
you grow tired and weary.
Escape
The silent voice whispers in your ear
